Friday, July 25, 2008

Not-so-sweet dreams

For about the past week or more, I've been waking up feeling like I've wrestled someone all night long. Chris has been on the road, so I've been sleeping alone. I have also felt like I had dreamt bad dreams, but I had no memory of the dreams...just the bad feeling when I woke up.

As you can imagine, after this going on for 5, 6, and 7 nights, I have been a zombie during the day!

Thursday morning I think I finally made a breakthrough. I remembered what I had dreamed. I didn't remember every detail, but I recalled enough of the dream to understand why I was waking up feeling drained every morning.

In my dream, Chris was in jail in another state and I had no access to him at all. I couldn't see him, talk to him, write him...nothing. I'm not sure why he was in jail, except that it was the result of some sort of misunderstanding, and the police were after me too (I was a fugitive!). The whole dream I was running and running and running to try and stay away from the police.

I've never been a runner, but have always thought it would be nice if I was! This part of the dream was actually kind of fun *grin*.

Anyway, in my dream I ran to the building where I work, then for some reason decided that was not a safe place to be and that I needed to leave. BUT I COULDN'T GET OUT! Every door I tried to open would break. The latch on the bathroom stall was stuck. My office door hinges wouldn't budge. The front door was locked and my key wouldn't work. All the while, I'm running out of time. I don't know why I felt this sense of urgency, but I did. I was running against the clock.

I FINALLY get out to my car in the parking lot, but I can't get in my car to get away. A big truck has parked so close to me on the driver's side that I can't open my door, so I race around to the passenger's side to crawl through. When I grab the door handle on the passenger's side, it breaks off in my hand. At that moment, the police surround me and I wake up all flustered and out of breath.

I don't know if I'm having this same dream every night (because this was the only night I could remember), but I wake up feeling the same way.

Okay blog-o-sphere, please help me out! I very, very rarely remember my dreams, and I almost never feel like I have bad dreams, so what is going on with me??? I want to see your comments with the best dream interpretation that you've got!

Do you think the running in my dreams can make up for the lack of running in real life?


Earl Gearl said...

I found this:

"Chase dreams often stem from feelings of anxiety in your walking life. The way we respond to anxiety and pressure in real life is typically manifested as a chase dream. Running is an instinctive response to physical threats in our environment. Often in these dream scenarios, you are being pursued by some attacker, who wants to hurt or possibly kill you. You are running away, hiding, or trying to outwit your pursuer. Chase dreams may represent your way of coping with fears, stress or various situations in your waking life. Instead of confronting the situation, you are running away and avoiding it.?Ask yourself who is the one chasing you and you may gain some understanding and insight on the source of your fears and pressure.

The pursuer or attacker who is chasing you in your dream may also represent a part of yourself. Your own feelings of anger, jealousy, fear, and possibly love, can assume the appearance of threatening figure. You may be projecting these feelings onto the unknown chaser. Next time you have a chase dream, turn around and confront your pursuer. Ask them why they are chasing you.?

One may be consumed by their own anger, jealousy, love, or self-destructive behavior. For example, you may be drinking too much or exhibiting open hostility toward others around you. You may subconsciously be threatened by these actions which have been jeopardizing your relationships and/or career. Your dreams are a way of calling attention to these self-destructive actions.

A more direct analysis of chase dreams is the fear of being attacked. Such dreams are more common among women than men, who may feel physically vulnerable in the urban environment. These dreams are inspired by fears of violence and sexual assault in which we are so over-exposed from the media. The violence that the media portrays magnifies our fears and how at risk we all are."

Angie said...

I am so sorry that you have been having these dreams. That is horrible. I think you have a lot of things coming at you at once. First you just came back from a life changing experience so that takes time to adjust just in it's self with time change, culture, and all. Then pretty much as soon as you get back, Chris has to be gone for a very long trip. So bad sleep cycle plus no hubby = brain goes into stress mode. Oh and add a little dissappointment in job situation.

Joy Lin said...

According to your sister's post, you drink too much, watch the news too much, and need to confront the cops about why they're after you and Chris. I don't know, though. None of those sound like you...Unless you're really not the person we all think you are and your dream means you're afraid we're going to find out. Hmmmmm......

Earl Gearl said...

I'm confused about the pregnant women comment left on my and Russ's blog. Huh? I saw a deer with two babies....not pregnant women I showing my blondeness?

Earl Gearl said...

Ok, since my first post apparently said you drink too much, let's try this again. I found this:

"Quick Decode
Being followed; mission; avoiding capture

Popular Expressions
Chase your tale; Cut to the chase; Wild goose chase

Possible Meanings
It’s wonderful being chased if you are looking forward to being caught! But in a dream this is usually not the case. More often than not, the dreamer is running from something they do not wish to face. In your dream, are you running from an aspect of yourself, something that you are afraid of becoming, or something that you used to be that you no longer want to be?

If you can’t identify who or what is chasing you as an aspect of you, what or who is it you are afraid of? What do you feel will happen if you are caught? Are you strong enough not to be overtaken? What will happen if you stand and fight?

How you react to being chased is just as important as how you feel about it. Do you stop and confront the assailant, and face the situation? Or do you keep running, confident that you will not be caught?

The primary objective when you are being chased is to escape the person chasing you. Who is it you want to escape from? Have you planned an escape strategy? One other thing worth exploring: being chased in your dream may be a round about way of you telling yourself to be virtuous and chaste!"

If I were having this particular dream, I would blame it on the stress of going to see your doctor next week. BTW, I really really really really really hope everything goes well!

Adam said...

You already know what I think your dream means.