After a failed October cycle, we had picked up the pieces of broken dreams and already started looking ahead to our November cycle. Unfortunately, our November cycle will be a "natural" cycle (and experience tells us that doesn't get us where we want to be). My CD1 fell on the first day we were in Boston (the one time that I actually have a somewhat normal cycle, I was banking on the fact that I wouldn't... go figure), so I couldn't go in for my baseline ultrasound. Without a baseline, my doc won't prescribe the meds.
We're waiting AGAIN.
I can't tell you how frustrating this is. I am just tired. Tired of waiting. Tired of hoping. Tired of dreaming. Tired of this rollercoaster. Tired. Tired. Tired.
So, we keep praying. We pray for strength and patience and faith and that someday, somehow, the desire of our hearts will be fulfilled.
And we ask that you keep praying too.
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I am trying to hug you but you cannot feel it becuase of the distance between us.
Waiting stinks. We're still hoping and praying for you.
*hug*
I'm so sorry. Waiting seriously stinks. My cycle ~never~ does what it is "supposed" to. I'm glad to hear you had a great time in Boston though. I love hearing your perspective and seeing pictures of my town. :o)
***HUGS***
Chelly I truly believe He has to bring us to the breaking point for us to figure out it is not doctors and its not ultra sounds and its not medicine and its not any thing we can do.... or else we would have done it or all our efforts would have already worked.. I believe He is waiting fo COMPLETE SURRENDER and COMPLETE FAITH in him and Him alone. Dont ask me how to do that.. that is a really hard road but seek him and you will find it. He has your little bundle of joy and He knows just when He is going to give it to you. Just rest in His peace and know that He knows best..... and remember this is coming from the crazy lady that has been just where you are and doubts whether she deserves it either. Hang in there and let go and let God... easier said then done I know and if all else fails relax or adopt right lol
you are in my prayers!!
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