Friday, April 23, 2010

The Ugly Truth

I have never really struggled with my body image. In high school and the first several years of college, I was very thin. Then, PCOS flared up and threw my life for a loop and I put on some weight. I was still small, though.

But, I began fertility treatments and that "helped" me put on a little more weight.

And, I continued with more intense treatments and gained more weight.

Then, I became pregnant and gained more weight.

Now that Brianna has been here for two months, I'm still carrying about 10 pounds of pregnancy weight, plus all the other weight I had gained before pregnancy.

While I don't feel bad about myself -- and many of my pre-pregnancy clothes do fit -- the ugly truth is that I'm overweight.

Ugh.

After some thinking, I've decided I need to do something about it. Something more than just hope it will eventually come off on its own. Something more than just get used to how I look now and not worry about it at all. Something more than go up a size in clothing so that I'm a little more comfortable when I sit in my jeans.

So... I started Weight Watchers on Brianna's two month birthday, April 18th. It has been going well, and has really been helping me get my portion sizes under control, while eating a more balanced diet. My goal right now is to get the pregnancy weight off, then I'll go from there.

I get discouraged and overwhelmed very easily when thinking about losing weight, but I really need to do this.

And I can do this.

5 comments:

Jordan Sanders said...

Good luck with it! Do they have an altered program for nursing mamas?

Joy Lin said...

Hey, do you want to start walking?

Lisa said...

I'm with ya, babe. You inspired me (well, okay, told me) to lose weight and I am trying. Going strong since Monday. Hee hee. That's good, right?!?!?

Tracy said...

My kids are 8 and 5 so does that mean I need to loose my baby weight, too??!!! LOL :)))
I love ya and know u can do it. Weight Watchers is a great plan. I have tried it myself. Let's walk!!

Sara and Cayce said...

I'm REALLY counting on help from the breastfeeding... if not man I'm in serious trouble. I've plateaued with 40lbs of pregnancy weight... still 30 to go... yah I gained WAY too much! After my 6 week PP check-up I plan on starting working out in earnest.